I would like to go through all the details as to understand our situation..since when did she hate me so much?and when did the other person starts to love me so much? when did it all begin? What have changed much in this triangle of emotion?i would choose to hate her but can i?she have all her rights to hate me for (to her it was stealing) everything i did..

But what did i do?

Did i make stories about her in front of other people?
I don't even know her so how could i do so?
I used to adore her so much even for a very short time..she was so dear to me..i used to see her so strong and understanding,so beautiful.. what have changed much that i can only see weakness in her eyes now..
I can only feel hate and disgust by standing in front of her,being in the same room with her..
I feel disgusted with myself.. i feel sinful and i feel like strangling her but i just couldn't..she is still so special but in a very weird way..
I'm nothing compared to her.. I hate her but i'm afraid of her,I feel sorry for her..
can i do anything to fix this?
anything...just tell me..